Well I'm obviously not pregnant . We had really good timing last month and I actually ovulated on time but it still didn't work . I'm so suck of even talking about getting pregnant . It seems like that is all I think about. I cant escape from it . If I am on Facebook then someone is posting bump pics , when I'm at work someone announces they are pregnant , I have friends just now stopping BC pills and I'm terrified they will get pregnant before me and I'll have to put on my happy face .
I keep thinking about how nothing is fair . That I didn't deserve my MC. But I also can't forget all the amazing things in my life that I have been given . I have the most amazing husband anyone could ask for . Since the day I met him I have never questioned his love for me . He reminds me daily how he feels about me . I have a new house which I love . Matt and I both have good jobs, I drive a new car, and I have a family who is picture perfect .
I need to learn to focus on all the good things I have and not the one thing I don't .
Now I am off to watch Grey's and probably cry my eyes out ! Haha
